nervous!

gosh, i have been feeling so nervous that i could hardly breathe. okay, i was exaggerating, but still, i haven't felt this nervous in years!

i have been having some difficulty falling asleep because of this anxiety and my heart just skips a beat when i think about it.

so, i'm going to have this event on saturday and it's my very first YEC project, solely organised by me as the other members are all having exams. gosh. bad timing i know. and i'm so freaking nervous now. to make this worse, nie's pool is closed for two weeks. and i was trying to de-stress by playing tetris and a memory game but i just could not concentrate. zzz.

when i finally felt a little better after telling my boss about it, he ended off saying that he will be there which pushed me closer to a nervous breakdown.

still, he shared what a professor told him "intent comes within the heart. purposeful learning comes from oneself." i still cannot fully understand this, but i hope to be able to, after the event on the coming saturday.

shooting being there will really give me an emotional boost.

nervous. still.